This is my first abstract painting.
When started, I had a very precise image in my head how it should be. I wanted to create two colour blocks in orange and grey, in graduated layers to achieve depth. Orange and grey are in between colours. Orange is a warm colour, between red and yellow and can be seen as “joie de vivre” while grey is a boring, inanimate and nebulous colour, often used to express melancholy. Somehow I thought it’s a nice colour combination.
Anyway, I did not think of these meanings when I started but the first result was very appalling for me. That was not me! It was too wishy-washy, alien to me. I am a straight person, say what I am thinking and do what I am saying, sometimes challenging, but never undefinable.
I had an internal dialogue, one part of myself is very controlled, rational and logic, the other part is rather impulsive, passionate and hardly to retard, especially when it comes to explore something.
The next day I went back to my painting and started with different layers of blue to find my peace again, red for expressing power and passion and white for the rational part of me. It was naturally to separate the two blocks with a strong dark line.
The different colours I used are gleaming through, giving depth and showing a sort of turbulences. This impression has been enhanced by a high-gloss finish.
Exactly how I felt at the end of my first painting, churned up inside but somehow satisfied. I discovered something new to follow.